Ha! Thanks. But really the truth is… I’m finally ready to come out of retirement. Thing is… I’ve been on kind of a “backwards” path the last fifteen years. It began with a spiritual awakening that led me down a long winding path, renouncing lots of compulsions and narcissistic qualities that I was raised with, which were preventing me from totally being myself. I was stubborn, and it took a bit of “pounding” to get me to understand.  My discipline, as it were, had me the last dozen years intentionally being as thoroughly UN-awesome as I could. I deliberately pushed “ordinariness” as far as it would go — tried to blend in, took odd jobs with regular people, never mentioned anything interesting about myself like my education or accomplishments… I basically mingled with everyone and focused as much as I could on relating in terms of universal human themes rather than illusions of “specialness,” as I’d been so used to growing up. It was all a great learning experience. And now I’ve learned what I needed to and just feel like letting loose a bit.  Hope you don’t mind. :)

Ha! Thanks.

But really the truth is… I’m finally ready to come out of retirement.

Thing is… I’ve been on kind of a “backwards” path the last fifteen years. It began with a spiritual awakening that led me down a long winding path, renouncing lots of compulsions and narcissistic qualities that I was raised with, which were preventing me from totally being myself. I was stubborn, and it took a bit of “pounding” to get me to understand. 

My discipline, as it were, had me the last dozen years intentionally being as thoroughly UN-awesome as I could. I deliberately pushed “ordinariness” as far as it would go — tried to blend in, took odd jobs with regular people, never mentioned anything interesting about myself like my education or accomplishments… I basically mingled with everyone and focused as much as I could on relating in terms of universal human themes rather than illusions of “specialness,” as I’d been so used to growing up.

It was all a great learning experience. And now I’ve learned what I needed to and just feel like letting loose a bit.  Hope you don’t mind. :)

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